They bring out the worst in me

I have no idea what it is but when I am around certain women all of the sudden I change from being a gentleman to the caveman. Patterns of speech change and everything is just different. Like last night with David and Ashley. Everything was fine when David and I were sitting on the couch, not a bad thought entered my mind. Then she comes out and starts making comments that could have more than one meaning and mind takes a dive into the gutter, somehow I manage to continue with my story when she says something else about being a vegetarian her needing more protien in her diet. I could not help but smile. When she looked at me with that what look David was just hiding his face. It was not my fault. I was clean until others mention something. Just like how I am not looking for a bed partner right now but if someone mentions something then I would try my hardest to stay clean however in running away it is possible that I pull a hamstring and get caught.

But I am attempting to clean everything up, except for my rebel rousing. That part of my identity I am keeping.