Death

It is my opinion that death is something to be laughed at. I think that this is the proper response to someone dying. When my grandfather passed away a little over a year ago I of course was saddened. He really was the center of our family. Everything about him, from his laugh to his choice of beverage was just so joyfully him. In the final months my dad took him to the doctor and after he checked him over he asked if there was anything that my grandpa wanted to tell him about things that were happening. He said well I guess so, I have been throwing up blood and some has been coming out the other end too. Now I know that this was the cancer eating at his stomach but honestly how can you not laugh at this. Of course that is just how his generation thought, well I ain't dying (in this case he was) so nothing is wrong.

Before he passed I was able to go to the hospital to see him. He did not look that good, but I did get to introduce him to my girlfriend at the time Rebecca, I thought that it was really cool that she had spent a summer breaking horses something that he had done for most of his young life. Unfortunately that relationship did not last. But she was there for me on that night, and she was there for me on the day of the funeral, they had a person in full highlander uniform playing bagpipes outside of the church as the ceremony started. This got me a little inside. Then, I saw it, the citronella candle in a fake Budweiser can that I had given him my sophomore year in college on a day that him and my grandmother drove into town and fed me on their way to visit relatives. He tried to pull the pull tab and the top came off, he was wondering how I had gotten a beer since I was twenty years old at the time. I got carded buying it. People tell me that it is a blessing to look younger than you are, I guess that blessing only hits when you want to look younger. Anyway I am getting off topic, as I often do. So I start thinking about that time while looking at the candle and it just hits me, I will never play golf with my Grandpa. It had been years since I had cried and I really started to let go here. My shoulders were shaking and tears were rolling down my face. And then I realized that these tears were not for my grandpa they were for me. I dried my eyes got up and told some stories to everyone about the man that was the inspiration to my inspiration. I made everyone laugh; I knew that was what he would have wanted. Just because he was not there any more didn't mean that he should not still be making people laugh.

Death really is something to be laughed at though. Honestly if I shuffle loose my mortal coil because I thought that the rope swing was tied high enough that I would not hit the tree in front of me, I would want people saying, "Wait, how did he die? Oh that is hilarious. I mean bad that he died but imagine the crap that we could give a math major that miscalculated the arc of a circle." I am betting in that instance my last words would be "There's no way that I am going to hit that... aw crap." *Thunk* And then people would be telling the stupid jokes that I thought were funny, or horror stories that I had told them about my bad taste in women, but hopefully not about a pass that I had made one fall night long ago. That one I think I am going to keep between me and the person that missed the block which made the pass that much better.

So really I guess that it just has to be looked at as if there were no death then there would not be much to life. In many of the stories the Greek Gods were jealous of us mortals because each moment could be our last. If I have a near death experiences (which I have had a few) usually I laugh afterwards just at how close that was. If I have a past death experience then where ever it is that I go (said some things that will probably put me in purgatory with little Momo for a few hundred eons) I will probably be laughing saying something along the lines of well that was stupid.

What I am trying to say is that you should take that risk because you never know when you will never get to take that risk again.